he who lived to see the spring

deep shadow purple
and heavy with dew
i pick morning violets,

small water orbs
petal cupped
refracting silver and spring,

held by the sweet scent
of every lifetime spent
wet-kneed in the morning,
picking quiet violets
forest edge

it is a lonely sound
the distant hollow thud
of the gravediggers spade
forest edge
in the morning
but death
has always been
lonely –
unwanted, unsummoned
unexpected
even when it is
inevitable

yesterday old brannon-pony
died late evening.
used up his time a decade ago
yet lived on
and still he greeted
in his low breath voice
and scoffed his food,
gums squeaking on
toothless green peaches
late summer windfall
on the lawn

and still he walked
on his doddering legs
and still he dreamed
in dapple shade
beneath the trees
in the morning
forest edge

we sat with him,
jem and i,
cloud sky opening
to the stars beyond
as night cold
drew close

sat with him
where his legs had given way,
where his breath had slowed,
where warm beneath
his winter coat
fingers and palm
listened as the beat
of the great mother drum
in his chest
became the silence
between stars.

forest edge
in the morning
i picked violets
and forget-me-nots
as offering to the gods
of little things

because who else,
in the great wild
heaving of the world,
would notice the passing
of small a old pony –
who else would know
the empty space
he leaves benind
in the morning
forest edge.


Linking to Lonely Town over at Desperate Poets.

9 responses to “he who lived to see the spring”

  1. Sherry Marr Avatar
    Sherry Marr

    Oh so BEAUTIFUL and sad, the death of that old pony, honoured by your sitting with him, by our gift of violets, and the gift of this poem, in which he will be remembered by every reader. A truly moving homage. Sigh.

    1. lindi Avatar

      Thank you Sherry – Brannon reached a very impressive 35 years – an old rescue pony who has been with us for the 17 years. – and while we knew the winter

    2. lindi Avatar

      Had been hard on him and knew he could not live forever, his passing so suddenly on Monday evening was unexpected but peaceful. Thanks for your kind words. He was a bolig presence in a small body. Xx

  2. hedgewitch Avatar

    You bring the moment vividly to life, the sorrow of losing something loved that is mixed with the grace of gratitude for having known it. I had tears in my eyes by the end, and my stony old heart seldom experiences that sensation any more–an exquisite evocation of the loneliness of loss. I find the motif of the violets especially deft and the entire poem quietly beautiful.

    1. lindi Avatar

      Thank you so much for your moving response and your close reading. Always so very appreciated. Xx

  3. paul scribbles Avatar

    A soft and gentle Elegy to a life that mattered then and matters still now. Delicate and tender writing.

    1. lindi Avatar

      Thank you.

  4. Brendan Avatar

    For this reader, the loneliness here was cathedral, resonating all along the repeated “forest edge.” All life is both in common and terribly alone. Brannon went out as we all do – alone – yet there was a hushed loving accompaniment to it, just as there is in picking morning violets which too live to see the spring. Amen.

    1. lindi Avatar

      Thanks Brendan. Both for the reading and for holding space here.

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