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a rose
1.guardians of gateways
and sleeping beauties
sacred to the goddess
and hungry goats.2.in spring we dry the petals
gather bowlfuls
spread a purple sea
on cloths in the sun –
october smells like roses.3.there was a rose king of durbanville
he lived down the road.
i never got to see his garden
or what enchantment lay
beyond his high hedges,
but late summer we
picked pomegranates
from his fence
cracked open the pinking skin
ate them single-handedly
while pushing our bikes up the hill.4.she folded her hands
inside each other
tight like a rose bud
held them in her lap
said she had waited too long
to speak,
to long to forgive
she feared she would fall apart.
cut roses do that sometimes
drop their petals before they open.5.if you lick the back of a thorn
broken from the stem, just so
you can stick it on your nose –
touch the edge of your existence,
like a rhino.6.she said i am
not asking you
to buy me flowers –
just pick a rose
on your way back in
so i know
you were thinking of me
and maybe
you had missed me.
and he shrugged
his shoulders hopeless
because out there
the light had slipped low
below the clouds
illuminating the geraniums
against the storm dark sky
and his breath was held
to the beauty
and he had not
thought of her
at all.7.it was really just
that i had run out of ink
that had me printing your picture
rose tinted.
Drawing by Tim Hewitt-Coleman -
in response to “tips to look after your husband.” home economics text book 1950 something.
it never mattered
what it said
in those books.
it never mattered
that we moved on,
that we tore out those pages,
blacked the ink,
burned them,
reprinted cleansed
on new paper
from new trees
the same old stories
new told.what mattered is what
we could not unhear.
it was in songs that steadied
and lulled our pulse,
made us forget.
it was the unspoken
in every fairy tale
that wrote lesser than
in our blood,
it was the words
we never heard
that shaped our bones
into women.
hush now – daughters
of the earth
old anger deafens us –
the stones are speaking our stories
listen.
Drawing by Tim Hewitt-Coleman -
enough
before the sun lights
the last leaf,
before autumn blue
fades to a night
thick with stars,
before the dove has called
evening clear
from the telephone wire,
before the geranium has closed
petal by purple fold petal
to the night,
i will drink deeply of here
hold it a moment
cool water to my thirst.
Drawing by Tim Hewitt-Coleman -
synchronized swimming
deep in the valley
i hear my daughters’ laughter
clear as light
amongst the shadows of trees.
here, sun warm
and drunk on butterfly beauty
i catch the sigh that has held me
breathless and alone for days
and gift it to the waiting wind. -
constellation
across distance
a thousand kilometers
maybe more between us
across the vast plains of night
crossing endless roads
vein blue by starlight
i feel it.
passing termite mounds
and small towns
that buzz their own constellations
along the coast painted
with night breakers
crashing the shore
and the silence of land
between lights
i feel it.
feel the restless sleep
and heartbeat concern
the small mumbling dreams
pulled taut in this
delicate web of love
our own sympathetic nervous system
joined ganglion to ganglion
holding our collective breath
for a moment in the night.
we are points of light
in our own dark night
so much more to us
when we draw the lines
between.
Drawing by Tim Hewitt-Coleman -
resilience
where did hope live
all these years,
quiet as moth wings
needing nothing more
than the existence
of your flame.
it is a quickening pulse
that unfolds soft wings
readies them for flight
calls me onwards
through the night.
Drawing by Tim Hewitt-Coleman -
wednesday and the emergency room.
life does not live here
it is only measured
with hands that mark
the seconds in silence
machines that weigh
the beating heart.
life cannot live here.life lives deep in veins
pounding red with tides
and memory
rank with sacred purpose.
life lives on egret wings
lifting light to the sky
in the darkening evenings
of autumn.
Drawing by Tim Hewitt-Coleman -
that was jupiter in the sky with the full setting moon

Drawing by Tim Hewitt-Coleman so i stood this morning
feet wet with dew
and watched that turmeric moon
roll the forest horizon
dip below the trees,
and there by light
flimsy as my cotton shawl
i pledged allegiance to love –
to this unraveling path of beauty
and this glorious revolution. -
learning to pray
there are days
i cannot breathe
as the air has shaped
itself to your name
yet my lips
are too afraid
to speak you.
Drawing by Tim Hewitt-Coleman -
constant (is my love)
on a path
in the forest
soft earth underfoot
amongst sun fern edges
a woman walks
walks towards the light.
in her heart
is the forest
with soft earth underfoot
and there a woman walks
walks towards the light.
in this woman’s heart
is the forest
earth soft light
amongst the ferns
and there a woman walks
walks towards the light
and in her heart
is the forest
there a woman smiles
and walks soft
towards the light.
Drawing by Tim Hewitt-Coleman